BXBX NOVEL Chapter 1569 - Check On The Kids (3)
Ron admires Aiden and how knowledgeable he is. His advice is spot-on. But that can also mean one thing… "It sounds like you are talking from experience."
Aiden made a face and nodded faintly. "I messed up so many times than I don't wish to remember. More than once, it was a close call, and I almost lost Sarah because I was rash and stupid, and I didn't think how my actions will impact her."
Aiden saw that Ron is looking at him expectantly and he picked one example. "Last summer I found out that one dangerous organization is after me."
"Voronins?" Ron guessed.
Ron knows that they are investigating them and soon they will start attacks. Until recently, generals had information about the upcoming attacks, but no names of the organizations were mentioned. It was for kids' safety.
However, since their operation to annihilate the Shadow Ravens, Sarah and Aiden are sharing more details, including their future plans, because they believe that the kids are mature enough to decide for themselves. Also, more knowledge can help them understand their enemies and take calculated risks.
Aiden confirmed. "Yes. Voronins. At that time, we didn't have any information about them, and I panicked. I suggested to Sarah that we stay away from each other so that she is not implicated. I didn't care what will happen to me, I only wanted her to be safe." Aiden exhaled and shook his head as he remembered Sarah clinging onto him while sobbing uncontrollably. "That was the stupid thing to do. Sarah lost it, accused me of abandoning her and she had a complete meltdown. It didn't take more than a few seconds before I realized my mistake. I mean, even if she agreed, I would not be able to stay away from her. But my momentary lack of judgment planted the idea that I might leave her under given circumstances, and she became insecure."
Ron barely breathed while listening. In Ron's eyes, Aiden is always perfect. Especially in a way he is treating Sarah. The fact that Aiden revealed this part of his life, told Ron that this is important. Other than that, Ron wanted to find out what did Aiden do to make Sarah forgive him... because Ron desperately needs forgiveness from Zula.
"How did you fix that?" Ron asked when he confirmed that Aiden finished.
Aiden shook in a self-mocking laugh. "Fix that? I made it worse. We went for a trip where I almost died in an avalanche and then she saw old photos of me with some other girls in sensitive positions and she completely shut down. Instead of assuring Sarah that I will not leave her, I introduced her to the possibilities that I will die recklessly or fool around. That whole fiasco made me realize that she would do anything for me, while I am an absolute asshole who is not only taking advantage of her, but also pushing her away."
Ron looked at Aiden and he agreed with him: Aiden made it worse. But how is it possible that after all that mess Aiden and Sarah are together in a harmonious relationship? Ron wanted to hear about the solutions!
"I am not helping much, am I?" Aiden asked and continued talking without waiting for Ron to respond: "You want to know how I fixed it. I don't think I did. She fixed everything, as always. Sarah is the awesome one and I am lucky to have her. She fixed me, and the only thing I did was… I made sure not to push her away. I realized that in a relationship, it's not about each of you giving 50% to make a hundred. It's about each of you giving 100% because only by giving it your all you can make it work. But even with that, I didn't know how to fix it, so I did what I could… I removed all the things that might make her think that she is not my first priority in life, and I used every chance I've got to show her that she is important and that I need her, and that I will do whatever it takes for her while neglecting my discomfort... and she did everything else."
Aiden smiled sadly while drifting into memories before snapping into reality and continuing.
"Zula is an amazing young lady. She is smart, loyal, fast, brave, capable, all in one adorable package. If you let her in, she can help you. But you messed up and now you will need to prove your sincerity that you are willing to let her in and that you will not push her away in a moment of crisis. Show her how much she means to you, go for it without any stops. And if you care about appearances or what others will think, or you put your feelings above hers, then you don't care enough about her and you should give up."
Ron stared at Aiden. "What do you mean, give up?"
"How I see this, right now, you are drifting toward the breakup because going halfheartedly is not enough. If you are not willing to give your all for Zula, let her go. She will get over you eventually and find a guy who will treat her the way she should be treated." Aiden said matter-of-factly and pointed at the food.
"Eat, before it cools completely…" Aiden reminded Ron and returned to play with his phone.
Ron put a piece of food in his mouth and chewed while recuperating from the shock of Aiden's words. So far, everything seemed encouraging. Ron heard Aiden saying that he should mend the relationship with Zula and make it work, but the last few sentences shook Ron's soul. Give up? Breakup? Zula will get over him? Zula will find another guy? Those thoughts are agonizing. How is he supposed to live without Zula by his side? Aiden must be kidding, right?
Ron can't deny that what Aiden said is true. In a moment of panic, Ron treated Zula as an enemy and he hurt her. Does she deserve to be treated like that? Of course, not. For the last six months, she is beyond caring and supportive and his action from that morning ruined everything.
But how is he supposed to show his sincerity?
The image of Zula's expression flashed in Ron's mind, when she told him that he hurt her and that she was afraid. Ron scolded himself internally. He knows that Zula is too good for him, but he is too weak to let go of her. He needs her more than air, and just the thought that she is rejecting him is suffocating. This… he has to fix it. Somehow.
Ron looked at the broken hummingbird figurine on his desk. He took it from Zula's room that morning… Considering that she broke it, it seems that she doesn't want it anymore.
Ron went to get the figurine and showed it to Aiden.
"Do you think that this can be mended?"
Aiden observed the delicate bird and guessed: "Zula's?"
Ron confirmed. "I bought that for her and… How do I fix it?"
Aiden made a face. "This is a crystal. No matter how well you glue it, the lines will be visible, and the refraction will be off. Your best option is to buy a new one."
"But this one is important." Ron insisted.
Aiden raised his eyebrows. "Important? If my guess is correct, Zula broke it. No matter how important it was, it will only remind her of this episode and you don't want to give a woman reminders that you messed up. They have everything stored in their permanent memory even without those. Trust me. Get a new one."
Ron thought about where they found that hummingbird and he got an idea. "Can you help me set up something?"
"What do you need?"
"Uhm…" Ron paused while his mind worked a million thoughts a second. "I will need to go to the town, to buy something. Do we have those small lights on strings that work on batteries? And I will need wireless speakers."
Aiden smiled. It seems that Ron has an idea. "Make a list of all the things you need, and I will tell you if we have them or where you can get it…"
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