Chapter 12 An Accursed Gift
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So all of this is like a game to you, Lucifer? Do you think I will do according to the script you\'ve already made? Who exactly do you think I am? Well, aside from him pretending to not have been hurt by my attacks, it is clear that he wasn\'t lying about the other things. This power can indeed help me grow stronger at a fast pace…
However, I am conflicted. I don\'t want to use a power given to me by this bastard… It feels wrong, and I don\'t think it will come so easily… Could there be a side effect or something else he\'s planning with this?
Hmm… But this isn\'t exactly so bad either. If he said this will eventually lead me to him, I might finally find him once more after I grow and surpass my limits in here, and beat the shit out of him.
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"Sigh…"
I sighed as I looked up at the room\'s ceiling.
Despite all the emotions bubbling inside of my heart, I kept my composure and sighed. I decided to close my eyes. Today was a tiring day, I will sleep for an hour or two and then think what to do.
Having a calm and stress-free head is the best to make better decisions, as I am right now, I might act recklessly. Taking a nap, despite how stupid it sounds, will help me relax and calm down my impulses.
Erika noticed me sighing.
"B-Blake, I know you got… an underwhelming spirit but it is no reason for you to… feel bad. You\'re already amazing by yourself and… I know you will grow even stronger by your own means. I know it because I\'ve been at your side for years now." Said Erika, the adorable girl was trying to cheer me up. Her efforts were commendable, and they indeed cheered me up, but the reason why I was like this wasn\'t because of the spirit.
"Thanks, Erika, I think I need to sleep a bit more, I woke up too early this morning." I said.
"Oh, then let\'s take a nappie together." Said Erika, as she jumped onto my bed and cuddled at my side.
Taking naps… something I would never do in my previous life because I thought it was a waste of time to even sleep, being a vampire and all…
But now that I have the vulnerable body of a human, I get tired rather easily, and cannot be awake for years like I used to.
Erika cuddled at my side as I caressed her pink hair. I closed my eyes without saying another word and she did as well, we ended falling asleep rather fast and soothingly, the calm breeze coming from the open window was just fine as well.
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"Blake! Lunch time!"
I woke up to my mother\'s screams. Can\'t this woman be less loud? There are children sleeping here!
…Ah, lunch, right.
"Erika, let\'s go eat." I said.
"Muwhuhwh…"
Erika was making weird sounds while cuddling over the cushion, she still wanted to sleep.
Despite having the body of a doll, I would guess that her mind and souls till grow tired after using a lot of mana to move her body around, so she required sleep almost the same as a living flesh body.
She even dreams and more, despite not having a brain. Her creation is rather fascinating, but it could be said she\'s something like a golem. Other people might go as far as to call her Undead.
But above all of that, Erika is my friend.
In my previous life I had gathered many allies, many friends… They were all at my side at all times, working together to help me assess so many areas I had conquered I would had never been able to do it all myself.
Despite enjoying my time alone, I had to admit that their presence always cheered me up, without them, I often felt rather empty. Over the years, my heart ended growing soft, I suppose.
My crew…
Eleanora…
I wonder if I can summon you like the book said?
If it is possible to bring them all back as spirits…
Then… Maybe I might end up using Lucifer\'s tool.
If I didn\'t want to be tricked by it, I simply have to find a way to make this entire book\'s powers my own, and assimilate it completely.
Like that, Lucifer\'s authority over this power will be lost, and I will acquire all of it.
But how long might that take me? I don\'t know, defying the authority of a being such as him seems almost impossible.
But maybe there could be roundabouts in this new world I am in. There are many new possibilities.
"Blake!!!"
My mother once more interrupted by deep thoughts, as I decided to jump out of bed with Erika and went to eat lunch with my family.
"Miss Mary, let me help you!" Erika said, using her Royal Dolls, which were the size of normal dolls, to carry plates with food. They were able to naturally float in midair and had swift and precise movements, they all moved and worked to her very will as well.
"Oh my, such a useful Spirit, dear, it is as if you got your whole squadron of friends now." Said my grandmother.
"Yeah, with this, I\'ll never be alone…" said Erika with a cute smile.
"Well, you would never be alone either way." I said.
"B-Blake… Yeah, I know…!" Erika looked at me while blushing.
What an adorable child.
While having lunch, my parents and my grandmother continued trying to cheer me up, but now that I felt refreshed after taking a two-hour nap, I felt rather light, and didn\'t seem to be bothered anymore. I had cleared my mind. Sleeping seemed like a magical potion in how it can so easily calm my stress.
"Don\'t worry about it, I will find my own ways to grow stronger. Who said spirits are everything?" I said.
I said that while already knowing I might summon a new spirit…
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