Chapter 215 - 215: Paranoid
Shen Jun didn’t believe that Jiang Chun had feelings for him. He simply felt that Wen Nian was paranoid.
However, he has feelings for Wen Nian. Even if compared to Jiang Chun, and even if Wen Nian mistakenly acted out in anger, he would still protect her and be on her side. He was willing to make compromises for the sake of soothing Wen Nian’s heart.
Wen Nian had no doubt about Shen Jun’s current feelings for her, but their current issues were not about their emotions. The differing perspectives made Wen Nian feel powerless. All of Shen Jun’s actions were compromises for her, but they also demonstrated his lack of trust in her.
During the bonfire activity in the evening, Shen Jun made continuous efforts to entertain Wen Nian, but she found herself somewhat disinterested. They encountered Jiang Chun along the way.
However, this time, Jiang Chun didn’t initiate a conversation with Wen Nian. Her gaze towards Wen Nian was somewhat timid, but she remained as warm and friendly as ever when greeting Shen Jun.
However, Shen Jun only nodded in response, and Jiang Chun didn’t say much either, smiling as she left.
Seeing Jiang Chun’s masterful acting, Wen Nian couldn’t help but feel defeated. Her already difficult mood became even more agitated. Shen Jun noticed this and suggested returning to the hotel.
As they left, it was the liveliest time in the ancient town, with tourists wearing happy smiles. The silence between the two of them felt particularly discordant in that atmosphere.
Because of the bet they made at noon, Shen Jun adjusted his mindset and playfully pestered Wen Nian to fulfill the promise.
However, when the two of them lay side by side on the bed, they both felt an invisible barrier separating them. Shen Jun started to feel a sense of unease and reached out to embrace Wen Nian in his arms.
“Nian Nian, please don’t be unhappy. What do I need to do to make you happy?”
In the darkness, illuminated by the moonlight streaming through the window, Wen Nian looked into Shen Jun’s eyes, feeling a sense of sadness. “You still don’t understand what the problem is?” she asked.
This sentence again!
Shen Jun furrowed his brows upon hearing this. “So, in your opinion, what is our problem?”
Wen Nian paused for a moment before speaking, “You don’t genuinely believe the words 1 said from the bottom of my heart. Don’t rush to argue or feel the need to respond to me. The answer is something you already know within yourself.”
After wrestling with this issue for most of the day, Shen Jun was starting to feel impatient. He tightened his grip on Wen Nian’s hand and suppressed his anger. “Doesn’t it matter that I’m willing to keep my distance from Jiang Chun? Isn’t that enough?”
Wen Nian sat up, looked down at Shen Jun, and exclaimed, “I don’t want your compromises. What 1 want is for you to believe in me!”
Shen Jun got up, switched on the bedside lamp, and looked at Wen Nian. Taking a deep breath, he said, “And what happens after I believe you? Would you still prefer that I have no contact with Jiang Chun?”
“I’m asking you, would the result be the same?!”
Frantically, Wen Nian answered, “No, it wouldn’t be the same! You currently think I’m being unreasonable, don’t you? You’re compromising because you like me, but what about in the future? When you get annoyed, what you’re doing now will suddenly seem like a mistake. You’ll think I’m a treacherous and manipulative person who has deceived you!”
Unconsciously, in their interactions, Wen Nian had already regarded Shen Jun as a reference point, distinguishing her present self from her person she was in her previous life. That sense of dependence compelled her to desperately hold onto Shen Jun, like a drowning person grasping onto a lifebuoy.
Wen Nian cared about his perception of her. Others may not believe in her, but he couldn’t be the same. Love is easy, but getting along is difficult. Sometimes, seemingly insignificant things in a relationship can become the reasons for a breakup.
Seeing Wen Nian in such a distressed state, Shen Jun felt helpless. After considering it, he realized they needed to address the root of the problem. He held Wen Nian’s shoulders in his hands, attempting to persuade her. “Nian Nian, Jiang Chun truly doesn’t have feelings for me. When you doubted her today, didn’t she deny it too?”
Hearing Shen Jun’s confident tone, Wen Nian couldn’t hold back any longer. She poured out everything she had to say, “That’s because she must have seen you and denied it! Because I’m with you, she can only use the childhood connection to get close to you, sow discord between us, and take advantage of the opportunity!”
Rather than denying, Shen Jun thought for a moment and spoke tactfully, “Could it be possible that because of her connection with me since childhood, you feel a lack of security, which leads you to believe that Jiang Chun has feelings for me?”
Wen Nian angrily glared at Shen Jun after hearing this. “So, you don’t believe me.. You think I’m paranoid and overly jealous!”