BXBX NOVEL Chapter 559 I love you.
Chapter 559 I love you.
Su Wan was so shocked upon hearing Lin Yan\'s words that she didn\'t know what to say to him, she simply stared at him while feeling a rather strange feeling crawl up her throat.
Lin Yan was waiting for the other shoe to drop, he knew that Su Wan didn\'t like being a mother and most probably she would agree with what he has told her but when he waited for a long time and didn\'t receive an appropriate response from her, he looked up and to his surprise, Su Wan was neither angry nor joyful or relaxed… she was actually—— CRYING!
He was so stunned at the pitter-patter of her tears that his mouth dropped open and he stared at her for two seconds with his mouth completely agape before he started panicking. " Wan... Wan..? Why are you crying? What happened does something hurts? Should I call Doctor Gu?"
Su Wan shook her head and then started crying harder as she let her tears fall down her cheeks, she didn\'t know why she was crying so hard but she just wanted to cry really bad, maybe it was the baby inside her who heard her father\'s words and upon realising that her father didn\'t want him started crying like the baby it was. " You..hid..you said ..hic.. that you don\'t want the baby. Do you hate me? Ho..how can you say that?? Because of wh..whom hic… I am like this?" The more she cried the more agitated she became and then before she knew it she was unconsciously hitting Lin Yan on his arm. "It\'s you! It is because of you and that stupid peepee of yours that I am like this …wahhh… you put this baby in me and now you don\'t want it, no more. How can you do..this…how can you dooo..this to me! Bastard! Jerk! Asshole!"
Every time she spoke, she would enunciate each of her words with a hit.
Lin Yan was surprised at first but after getting hit, he snapped out of his daze and looked at his wife who was crying a river as he shot a quick glance at the door. Shit, if anyone heard Su Wan cry like this they will bury him sixty feet under the ground.
He hurriedly soothed Su Wan as he took her in his arms ignoring the punches that she was delivering in his gut. " Wan Wan, sweet Wan Wan…I never said that I hate you or the kid, I love you both."
" But you just said——"
" I said that because I know just how much you fear motherhood," said Lin Yan as he smoothed his hand on Su Wan\'s back to calm her down. The child wasn\'t even three months old and it was already this naughty, who knows how naughty he or she might be once it comes to the world.
Su Wan who was listening to Lin Yan carefully calmed down upon hearing that Lin Yan said that because he cared for her and not because he hated the child or the responsibility that will come with it. " Really?" She asked in a voice that was full of doubts.
" Really," promised Lin Yan as he secretly heaved a sigh of relief at least she has stopped crying and was willing to listen to him. " I know that you are scared and this is definitely not how I thought that our child will come into the world, I don\'t want to force you to accept a child that you don\'t want to, alright? If you abort it, we can say that the child was shaken up pretty badly by your fall and you had a miscarriage."
Now that Su Wan was calm she was no longer shocked, she knew just how selfless Lin Yan could be, he was a brother and son who gave up on his own childhood so that he can take care of his siblings and family, his selfless nature hasn\'t changed now that he was a husband. She knew that he wanted the child but he was putting her first rather than his desires, she hugged him and naively tipped her head as she asked, " You don\'t want the child?"
" How can that be?"Lin Yan chuckled as he hugged her back and kissed her forehead. " Of course, I want it but as you have always depicted Su Wan—— you are your own person and have your own ideas, you hate being forced to do something that you don\'t want to do." He licked his lips slowly as he took a breath, " I know that you are my wife but at the same time you are another individual that has her own mind—— this is your body and you have made us understand it long ago, we might own your name but we don\'t own your body. I will not make the decisions regarding what you want and what you don\'t want by forcing you to make a choice, if you want to then you can keep the child but if you don\'t then I won\'t force you to keep it either. But don\'t think even for a moment that I hate you or the child, I love you both and that\'s why I am willing to listen to your opinion."
Su Wan blinked her eyes, and for the first time in her life felt like she did something right by choosing to marry the Lin brothers, they were like blank slates and when she taught them how to respect the opinions of a woman even if she was their wife, they picked it up quickly and never once had they rejected to listen to what she wanted, especially Lin Yan who knew it better than anyone how it felt to have his opinion rejected. He would always listen to her and though they would fight about this or that, he will still let her do what she wanted—— it was really surprising to see how far they have come.
From a bickering couple to a couple who understood each other the most.
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She sighed and took a deep breath before splaying her hand on her abdomen. " I am going to keep this child, you can throw that idea out of your head that I am going to abort this child."
Lin Yan blew out a breath though he was really happy upon hearing what Su Wan said, he didn\'t dare to get too happy so soon. " You don\'t have to be considerate of my feelings, Wan Wan. If you are not ready we can take this risk, we are still young and we can definitely give birth to more children when you are ready."
Su Wan rolled her eyes and slapped his arm. " Who says that I am doing this out of consideration for you? Maybe I just want to keep this child, no matter what."
Lin Yan blinked his eyes as a sudden surge of emotions heaved in his chest. " Are you serious?"
Su Wan nodded her head, though she has always been scared of being a mother but now that she really has a child in her belly, she couldn\'t bring herself to kill it. What was more, her heart was already brimming with a warmth that she has never felt ever before in her life, the child was the reason she could feel this new sensation and it would be a lie if she were to say that she hated it.
She didn\'t—— in fact even though she was scared of what was going to come in the future she was already in love with the idea of being a mother to this child. Really, now she couldn\'t understand her mother even more—— how can she hate the miracle that she gave birth to? Because she can\'t even think of hating the child that was in her belly. Much less do anything to hurt it, she took a shaky breath and looked at Lin Yan because of whom she could feel this magical feeling and smiled. " I —— I don\'t know how to explain it but I don\'t hate this child, in fact, I feel so happy that my heart feels like it is going to explode, I don\'t know whether or not I will be a good mother but I think with you by my side maybe we will be able to get past everything, don\'t you—— Woah!"
Before she could finish what she was saying, Lin Yan picked her up and twirled her around in the air with him. On his face was a shit-eating grin as he laughed and circled around the same spot. " Wan Wan! Oh, Wan Wan! I don\'t know how should I thank you! I thought that you will hate me forever for making you pregnant but you actually went ahead and gave me the best gift I could have ever gotten."
" Yan what are you doing? The baby——" chided Su Wan though she was still smiling all the while.
" Oops," said Lin Yan with a sheepish smile as he carefully put her down and then he pinched her cheeks after hesitating for a while. " You —- you are amazing, it was supposed to be your birthday but you gave me the most precious gifts there were possible. I love you so much, Wan Wan,"
" Oww" she winced at being pinched so hard but she still rolled her eyes and smiled at him. " I love you too, Yan."