BXBX NOVEL Chapter 355 - I Want To Help!
Chapter 355 – I Want To Help!
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Abyss began to think about her entire life until now and what she had been doing. Since she was reincarnated from being a guinea pig in a laboratory due to her strange powers, and how she ended being summoned into a Shoggoth by Chaos, all of that came together as she recalled her past and what she was now.
Compared to her previous life, she certainly had a freer life, with less restrains, but now, there were even larger dangers at every corner, she couldn\'t possibly relax even in this life, there would be enemies to come for her eventually, not because they knew about her but because of the one she was attached to and loved dearly, a man that was going to be chased down by everyone, even those that were not even his true enemies but that despised him for having been made out of the corpses of members of two prestigious families.
Due to this, she was dragged in a conflict she didn\'t had anything to do with, but thinking about Chaos, he himself didn\'t had anything to do with this, he had come from another world after all, he really didn\'t had anything to do with what he had been made into, but instead of blaming his parents for what they had made of him, he was thankful to them for having being given a second chance, and he was willing to fight against all odds to survive, no matter the cost.
And Abyss wanted that too, she didn\'t wanted to escape or something, and preferred to stay at his side. However, due to her nature, her previous life, and everything else she had lived, she couldn\'t completely understand why Chaos was so fixated with the idea of helping others and being "humane" when he was already an aberrant monster like her.
She remembers that she had once questioned him about it, and he only said "Because I think that\'s what I should do." There was nothing else to say. He had not said that he did it for justice, or because that\'s what strong people had to do, or any bullshit morality. Chaos had no morality actually; he simply did whatever he wanted.
And simply put, what he wanted to do was having empathy, emotions, and feeling humane, because on his previous life, he never had the chance to live as person… Being a monster wasn\'t going to stop him for acting as he desired.
It was coincidence that he did good things, perhaps. And now that he had attained a greater self-awareness after growing through challenges and other things, he realized that what he was doing was considered "good" and he was fine with that, although those he always fought considered it a bad thing, so he thought that what other people thought was always ambiguous to their own senses of values.
What\'s good for him might be bad for others, what\'s bad for him might be good for others, it was all about conflicting interests at the end.
Meanwhile, Abyss didn\'t understand such things and thought that other beings were lesser and that they didn\'t mattered other than Chaos.
But with her friends and the many challenges and experiences she had, she quickly realized that life had more than what she ever thought, that other people could also become important to her, even when they were not strong, nor were they serving her or Chaos… just because she was happy how they lived, and felt happy that they lived, she had attained true empathy without realizing it.
And maybe Nesephise helped in forging such a beautiful empathy to even higher degrees, with a strong friendship, and well, the help of all the other allies she had with her… She realized that she had indeed grown as a person, just as Chaos pointed out.
Now Chaos had grown so much that he was the one realizing when other people changed, even though she had also pointed how he had changed himself, becoming brighter, and more expressive.
"Yeah… I guess I have changed, without realizing it." said Abyss.
"You\'ve really changed, I am a bit sad that I couldn\'t be there to see Nesephise, but maybe if I was there, things wouldn\'t had gone like that to begin with… Nonetheless, Abyss, now that you\'ve made up your mind… What do you want to do?" asked Chaos.
Abyss began to think, but quickly came to a resolution.
"I know I am weak… that I am not even capable of fighting one of those guys but… I… I want to save those people, and Nesephise, she\'s my friend, and those people are her family…" she said.
"So you want to help?" asked Chaos.
"Yes…! I want to help…" said Abyss.
"Very well then, we\'ll work together so we can do that… I also own the planet a favor after she helped me grow stronger and regain my health…" said Chaos.
"Then we are really doing it, huh… I had thought we would end up escaping later on, but I suppose there\'s no backing down now." Said Lilith.
"We\'ll grow stronger… But how?" asked Erebus.
"There are still many ways for everyone to grow stronger, I will give you the opportunity, but you must find how to use this opportunity to become stronger." Said Chaos.
"The opportunity…" said Erebus.
"But what kind of opportunity is this?" wondered Lilith.
"Lilith, don\'t ask so many questions, Chaos-sama knows what he\'ll do." Said Belphegor.
"I have already decided it, so don\'t worry, we\'ll get to it eventually." Said Chaos.
"For now, what should we do?" asked Abyss.
"I want to go see the rest of my allies, they seem wounded, and I want to see if I can heal them with my newfound abilities and the magic, I already had… After that, we\'ll rest and then have a meeting tomorrow." Said Chaos.
"U-Understood, the people are here, please come with me, Chaos-sama." Said Lilith.
Chaos followed Lilith as he made his way towards where his allies were resting.
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