BXBX NOVEL Chapter 294: I Will Find My Own Strength...
Chapter 294: I Will Find My Own Strength…
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“T-To think I’ve come as far as to be able to use this technique… But I have been left… completely destroyed in the process… Hahah… Father… you were right… It takes me a thousand times the effort to reach only but a percentage of the strength of a genius… I am… I am really useless…” he cried, as his tears began to come out of his crimson-red eyes.
A man as strong, prideful, and arrogant as Ifrit was suddenly brought to tears as he recalled his past, and he was once more proving his father right by realizing how useless he was.
“Ifrit? What’s going on?”
Suddenly, Lilith’s voice resonated through the room.
Ifrit was brought back to reality, as he cleared his tears with his arm.
“A-Ah, Lilith… I-I just tripped off… I am still a bit dizzy, haha.” He laughed as he sat down in the bed while giving her his back.
Ifrit seemed suddenly depressed. Lilith was able to immediately tell because within the Illusion Element of Magic, there was the branch of Emotions, allowing a person to detect emotions in another person. She was able to see the emotions of sorrow and depression quickly emerging around him, as if his fiery red energy suddenly turned pitch black.
Lilith gritter her teeth as she approached him and touched his shoulder.
“Ifrit… You’re not okay…” she sighed.
“L-Lilith…?” asked Ifrit in surprise.
“Are you really feeling, ok?” she asked while sighing.
Ifrit gripped his fist as he smiled back.
“Yeah, what are you even worrying so much about? Don’t get me wrong but I am not some crybaby or something.” he said.
“Sigh… You never change, alright… But… your body… Is it okay?” she asked.
“I… I might had gone a bit too hard on myself… I think my Pressure Points got damaged. I think I can hasten their healing if I meditate for a while and gather Qi into them…” he said.
“Okay then… I’ll bring you some food.” Said Lilith.
“Thanks, you’re a good friend.” He said with a smile.
“I-I guess…” said Lilith while blushing, as she walked outside the room.
Ifrit sighed, as he smiled faintly.
Lilith’s concern somehow warmed his heart a bit more.
And then he quickly remembered their journey until now, and the mission they now had in this planet.
“Chaos…” he sighed.
Recalling his Summoner, he remembered once, when he and Chaos were practicing martial arts together.
The two were fighting almost in equal levels of power as it was when Ifrit reached God-Realm too.
Chaos was only using his bare fists too and nothing else, while Ifrit was allowed to go all out.
The two fought rather well.
Ifrit thought he was finally going to win against someone strong if he put enough effort.
But he was ultimately defeated at the end…
Defeated, he kneeled before Chaos while gritting his teeth, he felt humiliated once more… just like back then when he was constantly bullied by his two older brothers…
But Chaos didn’t made fun of him, but looked at him in silence, judging him…
Perhaps it was even more frightening because it remined him of his father.
“Ifrit, stand up.” He said.
“Ah…”
Ifrit looked upwards at Chaos, his expressionless face and his silent demeanor held some mystical aura behind him.
His crimson-red eyes seemed to be devoid of any light, but there was a certain compassion to them…
“You did well. I am happy to have a reliable friend. I know I can leave things to you when I am not present.” Said Chaos.
Friend.
Chaos didn’t named Ifrit as his “servant” nor referred him as a “summon”.
He called Ifrit his friend.
“But I… I am an untalented demon, my lord… Even with everything I do… Even with all I try to do… Even with all my training… I still can only compare to a small percentage of my brother’s strength…” sighed Ifrit.
“Hm… Instead of comparing yourself to others, why not find your own strength?” asked Chaos, unsarcastically speaking quite a lot.
“M-My own strength?” asked Ifrit.
“We all have our own strengths and weaknesses… Even I…” said Chaos, as the palm of his hand showed several elements rotating around a sphere of chaos, he then fused them into a larger sphere of many chaotic elements, it was a display of his unique powers.
“You… you have weaknesses, my lord?” asked Ifrit.
“Of course… Holy Light and Life Elements for example still affects me greatly, even after devouring beings that possess this element… Or… well, my own emotions… I lack a lot of them…” said Chaos.
“…”
“It is hard for me to do some things… I wish I could… develop them faster.” Said Chaos.
“C-Chaos-sama… You don’t really need emotions… They only get in the way…” sighed Ifrit.
“Is that so? But… Without emotions, the only thoughts I have in my mind is… hunger…” sighed Chaos.
“H-Hunger?” asked Ifrit.
“Hm… I envy you, Ifrit… At the very least you always had emotions with you… And you always knew… who you were… I still have a hard time thinking… Who am I?” sighed Chaos.
Ifrit then realized that even a being as powerful as Chaos, had many thoughts and internal conflict with his own emotions, and innermost desires.
The endless desire to devour everything.
Without emotions to put a stop and hold to them… he wouldn’t know what kind of monstrosity he would become…
He would go wild and end up being captured at the end and put to an end for acting like a reckless beast that cannot control himself.
“You have to find your own strength and master it, Ifrit. Everyone is unique. You just have to discover what’s your uniqueness and train it… Don’t compare yourself with others anymore.” Said Chaos.
“My own strength… I think I get it now… Chaos.” Said Ifrit.
Meanwhile, Abyss moved swiftly across the skies of Amphibi with a few of her companions.
“Damn it… The one behind everything managed to teleport away before we could catch him…” sighed Erebus.
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